inside_indjin

2004-06-16T13:02:00.000+08:00

Hi yall!!!!!Yall still visit mine uh?hehehhehehehehe!Sorry for not updatin my bloggy,I'm quite busy if u could see.It's been a week now since my tonsils removal operation.HAHAHAHA!!!!It's fuckin painful I tell yall!!!!!Dont ever have this operation.
I'm quite bored at home,feel like goin out but my grandma's very sick.I have to go!!!!!!Anyways,I love my sweetheart!!!!Love u baby!!!hahahahah!!!TATA!!!!

2004-04-19T22:52:00.000+08:00

This is da startin of a new craze,I could feel it.Just wait aight!!!!!!Well,good day,TATA!!

2004-04-19T22:51:00.000+08:00

Newest ever!!!
I wont give up
Words unspoken
A thousand tears I've cried
For you I'll start a fight
To make you feel alright

I'm left with nothing
Just memories of your smile
I know its been a while
Your stare just drives me wild

I've been waiting,patiently ignored
waiting at your door,please give me a chance

Tonight,It hurts me so inside
If only you'd stay awhile
I'll have a chance to say goodbye
Tonight,Why do you have to go
Still standin here at your door
Give me a chance to make you mine

2004-04-19T22:46:00.000+08:00

New release!!!!
Our Anthem
I wont say
I'm done today
This feelings may stay a while
I wont be killed
by your words
bu i decided to stay

Sir cant you see
I'm here now
I'll keep tryin over and over
I wont give
up this chance
even if it takes my life

We say;you cant put us down
we'll stay;till i'm pinned to the ground
you'll pay;your words are immuned to me
I will break free from this hell

2004-04-18T01:13:00.000+08:00

The time is about to get faster

There's plenty of new shit that's happenin around me,haha!!Firstly I would like to apologize to all yall dat i never updated my blooggy,I aint got da time and now,I got plenty.HAHAHA!!I'm like a goddamn reporter,haha!!

Our main headlines:
Greenview is heldin a competition called "BATTLE OF THE BANDS" and it's on late May or early June I guess.So,if there's a journalist from V3 came to you and interview,make sure you'll vote for da bands that you love aight!!Ex-Greenviewans are welcomed.
I will confirm da real date wit yall.

I'm wit a new band now and its called POISON STAR.It consists of 4 guys wit diff mind sets towards music.We are made off Me(X-IRISRIOT),Asri(X-IRISRIOT),Ghalid(MERRAPPES) and Napat@Dali(HAP HAZARD).Our connection is strong,I'll update more.

Please vote for PIOSON STAR,we will truly be honored to entertain yall

SPORTS SECTION:
Manchester United F.C 0-1 Portsmouth
Liverpool 0-0 Fulham

This wednesday is our skewl's sports day,I'll keep yall updated aight!!!!!BUHBYE for now,Dun be sad,I'll come back!!

2004-03-20T10:29:00.000+08:00

There's plenty of shit

Hi yall!!it's me again,your most friendliest friend you could ever had,haha!!!!well,first thing first,good morning to all of ya!It has been a long time ay???!!!!!I'm just here to inform yall now dat my com is back,I'll update ma blog k!!!!TATA!!!

2004-02-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

The time is 10.07p.m

There ares till problems and I'm smilin my way through life.Thanks for the advice man,I'd appreciate it aight!!Thanks for all yall had done.Anywayz,I dun wanna be sad all day.So,here is my log in for today.

Superteen sucks.I hate it but I love the way when everybody cries.Got to admit that I actually cried when they were talkin bout fathers and stuff.But I was laughing through the mother and siblings part,hahahah.I cant help myself thats all.Anywayz,I've heard that a cold war had just happened in 5A.OOOOOOoooOOOOooOOOOOh!!sumtins heatin up up there,hahah!!But give them two months,they'd be friends again,U BET!!!!
Superteen still sucks but the last day is a very touching experience.I got no one to hug as my parents were busy wit da cancer thing.I was devastated,lonely but hell I stil have myself to hug,heheh,and all my friends.
Congratulations to all that passed the GCE"O" levels today.I congratulate all of yous aight,and to all that failed,DONT GIVE UP AND MOVE ON,There are many alternativs in this life,its just that u just have to choose it.
To make matters worst,my grandma's is in ICU.This year is a bad year but it's only the beginnin of it and I was hopin for the best in thes end-year.HAHAH!!Thanks guys,ur great!!C ya when I c YA!!!BYE!!

2004-02-18T14:49:00.000+08:00

The time is 2.47p.m

Still sad though thinkin bout my dad.Maybe I'll go to east coast today not to think bout my dad.I just wanna chill.Not to think a lot bout my dad.

2004-02-15T13:18:00.000+08:00

The time is 1.04 p.m

Time has taken its toll.The doctor has confirmed that my father has tumor.It is a growth on his nostrills.These few days I could not sleep thinkin bout my father.What if he is gone?What will happen to me?What about my mother?These questions ringed in my head but I wont show my true feelings just yet.
On next tuesday,my father is having an operation to remove the growth.He is so quiet and alwas thinking about the operation.Yesterday he told me to look after my mom and that not to let my mom and him down in my studies.After the operation,he will rest one month at home and could not work,me on the other hand has no income.I will have to work.
Chances for him to survive is a little but I'll pray he will.
This incident has made me realise that life is precious.Life is unfair and life is beautiful.
I cried yesterday when he told me that he felt like it was time for him to go.But I kept my head high and continued to carry on this go-forsakened_unfair life.Seeing him sad like this wont do me any good.I have faith that he will come back home one day and my family will be in top form again.Insyaallah!!!

2004-02-04T12:41:00.000+08:00

The time is about to run on ya!!!

Hello webbies!!!!!It's been a long time.Aaaaaaaaah!!!!!School sucks,I went home today,got sore eyes but again i quote,WHO CARES!!!!!!Nobody gives a fuck bout me anymore,WAHAHAHAHAHAHA,which is actually not true.
Tapi skarang eh brader,penat dok mau skola,gua duduk umah main game lagi cantik.Gua da tak leh angkat ah ni bende semue.Gua da macam da tak heran lagi ah pasal skola.!!!!BUT!!!!Skool is important.SUKE TAK SUKE KENE SUMBAT JUGAK.
Cakap pasal sumbat,perot lapar siol,aku da kebulor ni.Takpe ah,lain kali aje.
AAAAH!!ni malam ada anak metro dok!!!!!Jangan harap gua mao keluar niari,lu isap sampai biru dulu baru gua keluar,wahehehehehehehe!!!Yang aku ni bebual cam gangster asal siak??????(LU-GUA-LU-GUA,MAKAN BABI APA???)
hehehehheheheheheheh,ok,tata,aku nak tengok porn jap,nanti aku update,CHAO!!!!

2004-01-28T18:39:00.000+08:00

The time is my watch broke down

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!It's been a long time since I've updated my journey in life.Anywayz,who da fuck cares???Nothing's been goin on actually,bored as hell.My frenz dont call me anymore,become more action and everytin they talk nowadays is about CLUBBING.To tell da truth I'm sick of it.Wat's there in a small place with a bar and lots of sweaty people dancin around you?????I guess sum of them liked it.Anywayz,I swore to never drink again and I apologize to my frenz dat I lied dat I never drink.Why did I say diz,becoz,I had a dream last nite dat I was drinkin when suddenly I couldnt breathe and felt like nearly dyin.I guess dats da call for me to stop drinkin.
Life is full of experiences.One would never know how it is unless he/she experiences it.HAHA!!!!So long web-slingers,I gotta go!!BYE!!

2004-01-19T22:04:00.000+08:00

The time is 9.40 p.m

Hypocrite----------Now this is keyword for this month,and YES!!it's hypocrite!!What does this stands for???Well,let me put it this way,it means two-faced!!!!It's two fifferent personalities off and on your back.
Maturity is da second key word of the month,YES!!!!It's da first month of school and everybody has maturity problems,well,I guess that's just me.Well,okay,let's talk about maturity.........

Hypocrite and maturity links strangely to us HUMANS!!Is it true that girls are more matured than boys??Well,I guess so....but I have thoughts about maturity linkin to hypocricity.It's 2004 and its da end of the year for the babies who were borned in 1987 to have their last year in secondary school life.But must they change drastically??People you talk to suddenly wont talk,people who doesnt talk suddenly talks.I accepted the fact that people change by the years but why da sad change to adulthood so fast??

Now!!This is what I think,me being a childish boy is just fine coz I hate being da matured one always keeping quiet and serious all the time.Hey,if youre too serious,u might as well get married already.Not to critisize people or anything but I just cant take it when people shout at me sayin"STOP BEIN SO CHILDISH"or"MATURED LAH SIKIT PRANGAI TU".It irritates me every single time.

And after diz,u might not wanna talk to me its just fine!!!!Coz I know that bein childish chases away da matured kakakz kakakz in our skool but say diz out loud alright!!!!!ITS NOTHING WRONG,ITS OKAY,U'LL GROW OLD ONE DAY ANYWAY SO LIVE UR FUCKIN LIFE DA WAY U WANT IT AND STOP BEIN A KID ABOUT IT AIGHT!!!IF U DONT LIKE ME,DEN DISS ME IN MY SHOUTBOX!!CHILDISH OR WHAT WE ARE STILL WHAT WE ARE OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GOOD NITE MATURED PEOPLE,DIZ KID NEEDS SLEEP

2004-01-18T09:45:00.000+08:00

Fuck da time man!!

I'm a little bit short fused by our last meeting.Dun mind me for behaving and talking that way coz I'm so angry after reading the remarks on my shoutbox.Its just that I'd been backfired by the person that I wanted to help.Dont worry aight,from now on,I'll just shut the fuck up and never help people again aight.I guess its my fault.

And thanks for the 6 years of friendship man!!Its really *meaningfull.U go your way and I'll go mine.Then tell your gf to get off my back man!!!!stop comin in when I'm jokin wit asri aight!!Stop commentin on things which she doesnt know,BYE!!

FUCK SIA,MY MOM NEVER WAKE ME UP!!!!!!I GOT TRIAL AT BALESTIER,SIAL BETOL AH!!

2004-01-17T10:17:00.000+08:00

The time is WHOCARES!!!!!!!

Let's make it clear!!I dun need anyone to say sorry or sympathise me aight!!!I dun need u to put a sad face sayin sorry coz i know all of yous are bunch af jackasses.You dun like me,than go FUCK URSELF one corner.Bout me and *Riot are nomore!!Who da hell said dat I'm sick of all of yous??I even congratulated asri for da nice song that u had come out with.U still fuckin say dat I dissed u guys?!?Fuck we've been friends for how long??6 YEARS??Its a long time aight!!Dun let 1 person come in and ruin our friendships.And if it goes like this,well,I dun know u guys anymore.U've changed man!!All of yous.Fuck all diz man!!I'm here tryin to say dat Ghalid dissed u guys and I backed u up u silly muthafuckas and all I get was fucked up remarks in my shoutbox?!?!?!?!?And HEY!!Asshole!!Dun worry bout me critisizin asri,it's our way of jokin wit each other aight!!
And I dun care of havin a girlfriend,U GUYS KNOW WHY????WELL,I'M NOT DESPERATE AND I DUN CARE!!I'm so used to loneliness,girls are nothing for me.They just bring much pain and no happiness.U wanna know da truth,here I am tellin u.Girls are like flies.They see sumtin they like they come and make themselves comfortable and when the see some other things that they like,the leave you and went hoppin to the other one.WELL,PRATICALLY,I DUN GIVE A FUCK BOUT PUSSIES OR SHITS FROM GIRLS COZ I DUN GIVE A FUCK!!U dun like it than kiss my ass u fucked up shitheads!!

2004-01-14T18:23:00.000+08:00

The time is 6.10 p.m

Hi again!!!!!!!!!!!!Well,this past past few days it really hits me deep.I'm in a not-stable mood coz I've been battling my own demons.I wanna quit smoking.I can tell it by their voices that my friends really cares for me.They wanted me to quit smoking as they saw dat I'm a heavy smoker.
Then again diz morning,it really hurts me inside.It's all about waiting and trust.But what would you do if someone you are waiting for said suddenly dat she doesnt want to wait for me anymore and dat there's another guy.AND THEY STILL HAVE THE CHEEKS TO SAY THAT I'VE CHANGED.Friends,I am still the same old Izwan that you know.The only thing that changed was all of your attitudes.It really hurts me for someone to say like dat.Why are all relationships in my life chapters all sucked??Why must it??Was I born unlucky??U tell me aight!!
Today was a very emotional day for "BAI" I guess that his mom passed away yesterday.I am so sorry and I hope that she would finally find peace in the afterlife after battling kidney disorder for several months.This really made me realise that anyone can go anytime and anyplace.But my prayers goes to his family for suffering this tragedy.

Well,u wont be hearing from me much again I think,I aint got the mood for this shit!!!!!!!!

2004-01-11T19:02:00.000+08:00

The time is 6.46 p.m

Hello internet lovers its been a long time since my last update.Last week was my first week in school and yet I've already skipped two days.Haha!!!!!!Wat to do????Well I did it,this year,I dont have a girlfriend HAHA!!!!Anywayz,I feel very happy for Feiruz coz he gets to go out with NURUL,my EX.She's really a nice person but the time when we were together,its da wrong time to have a relationship for me.
Yesterday we met and chilled at As-Shalihin.It's like a reunion.It's been like so long since we chilled together at that place.And I tell you,the feeling is great.We talked and talked and it seems that boredom never existed at that time.
Listening to Exist by the way.Jesnita was a very good song.A little bit emo after hearing it lah but I'll overcome it.Well to tell the truth,some of you might ask how many girls that i like in my shoutbox and the answer is,till I get married,I can like as many girls as I wanted to,hehehehhehehe.No lah,it's just that new people comes in your life,makes a difference and then vanishes into thin air.
Its been a long time since I had a girlfriend.Its been a long time since my last kiss.Well,lucky for me I'm surrounded by good friends like Firdaus,Feiruz,Hail,Jazli etc...Well,some of us are just lucky at times.Well,This is my 4 days once update on my blog,Well folks good night!!!!!!!!Just call me if yall wanna talk aight,BYEBYE!!

2004-01-05T20:48:00.000+08:00

The time is 8.36p.m

Hahahahahhahahahahahahahah!!!!!!!I'm back in school and i mean I'm really back.Da first day was awesome.Met old friends and new.Anywayz,I got a new look after all.Its da nerdy one.A punk-rock nerdy one.Haha!!!!!Some hate me,some love me.Well,face it jackass!!!Dat's life.Well,just to update myself,well,goodbye!!!!!!!

2004-01-03T08:45:00.000+08:00

This is me,my life

2004-01-03T08:44:00.000+08:00

I would like to welcome you all to the new year in the 2004.HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!My resolution is I wanna pass my O levels and get da hell outta my school.Hehe.So this are the list of exciting things that have happened in my past 2003 life,enjoy!!

In 2003,
*Promoted to sec 4
*Got a bicycle-Peggassus
*Managed to piss off teachers
*Get to know new friends
*Injured my groin while playin soccer in february
*Out for 4 months cannot play soccer
*Injured my left knee to a bicycle accident
*Passed my "N"Levels
*This is da only year that I do not have a girlfriend.
(The best thing that happened to me in 2003 is.........)
I passed my "N"Levels
(The worse thing that happened......)
I hurt my groin while playin soccer,it was a painful experience
(Most stupidest friend....)
I have to say Fauzul
(The cleverest/smartest friend....)
hmmmmmmm.......Asri
(What do i love about myself.....)
Nothing but myself

Aight more updates comin soon in this year!!!!Remember guys,I'm 18 now and I'm fuckin happy about that!!!Aight guys BYE!!

2003-12-29T21:52:00.000+08:00

The time is 9.32 p.m

In contact with Ida nowadays,as yall know she's da second sister of da 3 sistas who is Hail's cuzzins.That was long,WHEW!!!!!!!Anywayz,she turned out to be a good girl after all.Very quiet but she seems to be happy talkin to me via sms.I guess all silent types are like dat.

Me and Hail went out just now to pass them the Hari Raya album.They were so happy.We went around lookin for a thing dat me and hail wanted to buy and finally got it.HAHAH!!!!!

Same old thing lah today.So boring.I want to sleep lah,GOOD NIGHT!!!!!!!!!

2003-12-28T22:04:00.000+08:00

The time is 9.57 p.m

Aight man!Just got back from ma aunt's place at aljuneid.Fuckin borin man but its supposed to be my dead uncle's two years lah.Diz is just to remember him as a good person lah.

Yes today i even managed to play soccer BUT in the morning.This morning there's a match between my team and a team from east view sec.Not to boast or anything but I scored two for my team and all of it was a header.Our team won 4-0 and I was mad happy.1 for Fahmi,1 for Halil and 2 for me,ye ye!

Oklah!!I want to go smoke lah!!!Go 7-11 for a while and eat sumtin lah!!!!!Ok,got to go,SEE YA!!!!!!!

2003-12-26T21:29:00.000+08:00

The time is 9.18 p.m

Fauzul had gone to serve in da army juz now.It's his orientation day today.Even though I hated him,I juz wanna wish him good luck on his serving as a soldier.Me someday will go too.There's no running away from it now.WAT TO DO!!!!!!!

Hell yes I played soccer today but I'm not on my best form.There's too much walking and not resting for me today.Well,I am so tired.Did'nt manage to score a goal but I managed to tick off some people,HEHEHE.I tackled ariff and he fell down and got angry.I purposely banged towards their keeper haha.It was so funny,he was down and hurt and I laughed at him.

I felt like calling her today but I'm just too shy.No its not Maya but its da one dat I kept it in my heart for sooooo long.But I guess I'm bein a NONOK right now.What is happenin to me?I'm like a desease.SEMUE AKU SUKE!!!!!HEHEHEHEHE,GUA SEDAR LAH,WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!I guess its not da time to think bout relationships aight!!

That's one friend down and a lot more to go!!!!!!!!!!I wish dat he will suffer in da ns and be a brave boy instead of a sissy faggot.HAHAHAHAHAH!!!!Who cares bout Fauzul?NOBODY CARES BOUT THAT FOOL!!!!!!

In case yall wonderin,I'm still tryin to quit smokin but I cant.I need serious help.HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Well,signing off!!!!!!!

2003-12-23T21:55:00.000+08:00

DONT TELL HER I LOVE HER
VERSE1
Dont tell her I love her yet
I'm afraid of what she might say
What if she does'nt want
What if I'm not da one
I know dat wont be okay
VERSE2
Dont tell her I miss her yet
Even though she's my closest friend
I wanted us to talk
Or maybe take a walk
But I dont have da balls to say it
CHORUS
The problem is I'm not there
The problem is she does not care
The problem is she thinks I'm a gay,not in a million years
The problem is I'm too shy
The problem is she had a guy
Maybe I should tell her right away,but I dont know what to say

So dont tell her I love her yet

2003-12-23T21:48:00.000+08:00

The time is 9.32 p.m

Hello again,I'm fucked up aight right now.Quite sad ya know.But bein myself its hard to become sad.Limit limit gua buat kelakar,jadi gila.Anywayz I'm happy for Feiruz coz now he's gettin to know Syahirah's sister-Ain-my ex.She's beautiful ya know.Ehehhehe!Feiruz feiruz!Haiz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Boring siak!!Today I cant go out to play soccer becoz I made my mom angry.Kiakiakiakia.Firdaus called me juz now to ask me to play soccer.I didnt say much and just kept quiet.Well Fuck him to think that I was bein a kid out of it well I CANT AIGHT!!!!!!!!!YOU CANT TELL ME WHAT TO DO????SO,FUCK YOU!!!!!!
Lost myself for a while just now.Heheh.Even though in bridging course just now I was not concentratin.My thoughts are to beat up Firdaus.

THIS JUST IN!!!?!!?!?!?!??!:
I just hung up da phone wit Fauzul.Yesterday,he was beaten up by skinheads.Both him and his brother.Their girlfriends couldnt do anything,WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!Fucking gangsters!!!!!Sometimes I love them.

Well to cheer myself up,diz is my new song,DONT TELL HER I LOVE HER

2003-12-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

The time is 10.03p.m

Today is a sad day for Izwan Bin Abdol Jalil.He had just heard a story that really made him feel really sad.This is a true story which happened to me this evening and I feel that I had to share it wit yall.

In the beginning,:
Maya is a girl.We met each other durin Hari Raya outin and became friends ever since.We've been talkin and everything was fine.I like da person inside Mya but not da outside.As you can see she's a good person.But I decided not to like her as to love but to like her as a friend.

What happened????!????!?
It all started out on my pit as yall can see that Maya was invited but she came around 1-2 a.m in da mornin.I always trusted my friend Firdaus and I sure mean not da sec 5 one.He's a good friend.During da pit,I began to fall in love wit her.We walked around so happilly holdin hands,singing songs and even talked like couples do.
Next two days,she went out wit Firdaus.They went out to watch The Lord Of The Rings.They went out bringing back a piece of each other.Emotions came in and they had a sexual tendency.So,they made out.

!!!!!The fucking climax!!!!!
Today while playin soccer Firdaus came to me and talked.She said they made out in da movies.The irony is I just said dat I wanted to sound Maya as a steady.He told me everything dat had happened.They did not just patted heavily but even had sex together.I was devastated and instead went home early today.

Remember guys,cherish the one you love and dont trust even your best friend.If you love someone tell her immediately and dont wait till u grow a beard.I was so devastated and angry after hearin diz.It is damn sure dat I will have no luck in love at all. Remember,and yes diz time,TELL HER I'M SORRY FOR LOVIN HER.

Signin off!!!!~Izwan Bin Abdol Jalil

2003-12-21T21:59:00.000+08:00

DISZ-rejectZ newest song ~ DONT TELL HER I LOVE HER

call me if yall wanna hear it

2003-12-21T21:56:00.000+08:00

The time is 9.29 p.m

Seriously right now I feel weak.I think I'm hopeless in love.Is there sumtin wrong wit me?I'm sick of bein alone rite now aight!!!!!!!I know i sound like a jerk rite now but I am sick of seein people goin out together I mean boys and girls holdin hands,swinging happily.
I think its time to tell yall a big secret about me.Some of ya already know it and some of ya dont.I think I'm in love wit her again.Its not bout da looks aight.Now diz time I'm serious.I'm in love wit her since da day I met my eyes on her.I try to forget about it but it seems just so hard.I'm not givin any names.
Hell I'm not tellin her and any of ma frenz.I love her and diz feelin is stronger than Lina.If only I had da looks :( .
If I had her in my arms rite now,I'll never let go of her.She is da one that I want and tha ONE dat i need badly.I LOVE DAT GIRL,SHE DOESNT KNOW IT!!!!!

2003-12-21T00:14:00.000+08:00

The time is 12.00 a.m

HAHA,I am so hapy I passed my N levels but its quite dissapointin.I got sui sui 10 points seh.Dammit I suck.This is how it goes

English(4)
Maths(4)
Science(combined-chem&phy)(5)
Humanities(combined-hist&SS)(4)
Mother Tongue(4)
Art(2)

I know I suck hehhe and I know that I cant cope for da "o" levels.I'll try my best till March.If i cant cope,i'll go to da ITE and join in da july intake badge.Dat's all for today,Hey thanks anywayss for da encouragement guys!!!!I love yall,BYE!!!!!

2003-12-18T10:44:00.000+08:00

The time is 10.34 a.m

Today is the release of the GCE"N"LEVELS results.Today is the day that will decide wheather I will go to sec 5 or to ITE.My decision is if I passed the N levels,I'll go for sec 5 and if I failed,I'm goin to take private N and work to get money.But my dreams are to get my diploma and work to get a car.

I am so nervous now.Failing is not what I wanted.I hated failing yall know why?It brings down your self-motivation system in you brains and in your body,hehe.But seriously,I dont want to fail my N levels and pass and go to secondary 5 to take my GCE"O"LEVELS.

I'll update wheather I'll fail or I'll pass today later.To all my friends that I know,I'll wish you guys a big GOOD LUCK from me and all the best to all of you.My friends or my enemies it does not matter.Good luck for your N levels exams and I hope we will see each other in school later,BYE!!!!WISH ME LUCK!!!

2003-12-16T12:26:00.000+08:00

The time is 12.15p.m

These days,time really shows me what it really means.Time does'nt wait for us,we must make full use of it while we had it.Right now my head is on the chopping board.Two more days and I'm breakin down.RESULTS OF THE GCE"N"LEVELS is tommorrow.But who cares,I studied what?!?!?!?!?!?

Everybody seems to hate Fauzul these days ya'll know why?????He's a goddamned playboy.Every single girl he wants.But today on my pit i'll give him something to cry about.I think I wanna give Suhaila some remedy.Hehehhehehehe,I wanna see him cry.And yes!!today I'm gonna fish.

The rumours are true that Hail already have a girlfriend,CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT????.I guess I'm da only one without one.But I'll leave this message to all of yous.You screw Lina up,I'll screw my foot up your ass.I guess I'll take on my chances tommorrow.There's Mya,Lina or Sameerah,hehehe.Cam yeye aje aku ni.

2003-12-10T10:44:00.000+08:00

The time is 10.43 a.m

That's it I'm namin Fauzul the FUCKER OF THE WEEK

2003-12-10T10:40:00.000+08:00

The time is 10.29 a.m

I am in no mood today.I am so fucked up angry wit all my friends.They are just a bunch of stupid muthafuckas!!!!!Just look at Fauzul,that moron is so dumb he is beggin for an ass-kickin!!It all started out wit a promise.I hate people who broke their promise wit me.It's just not my style.Four times.Yes,That's four times he said he would wait for me at the bus stop and yes once again he's sleeping at home.Fuck this man!!!!!!Ya'll know what da fucked up problem it is about?He promised Azhar at 6 a.m and he can be there.WHAT IN DA NAME OF FUCK IS HE THINKIN????????Shit man,I dont know.I feel angry all around my body man!!!!One sorry-ass word comin out from him will end him up in da hospital.WHAT?WHY?DOES AZHAR GIVE YOU A BLOWJOB FAUZUL?????Fuck this man!!!Friends are LIKE FUCK!!!!!!!Fuck ya'll,I'm pissed.SHITHEADS!!!!!!!,SUCK MY DICK YOU MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!

2003-12-09T07:37:00.000+08:00

The time is 7.18 a.m

Fuck dat Fauzul man!!!!He promised me to get up early in da morning and go fishin but instead he sleeps and I am da one who woke up early today,DAMN dat shit for brains.It's juz too early for me to wake up.Well,I can always juz sleep again I guess.
The end of da year is comin and many things have gone us by.Memories sweet and sour come and go everytime and every minute.Now I know new year sucks but dat is juz da way of life.Every new year to me is like another day for me.Nothing is special on new year's eve unless you have a girlfriend or somthing.U agree?hehe,I really think so.
This 18th is the release of the GCE"N" results.Will I make it?Now that I dont know at all.To be honest I did not want to go to da ITE but I wanna go to the polytechnic.I wanna go up to sec 5 and STUDY,STUDY,STUDY since there is no more distractions as hail is no more in da school heheheheh,if not,we would laugh like crazy during spp hehe.Those were the days.I juz can only hope to pass.
All of yous might have diz qn in your head,WHY IS IZWAN SO SERIOUS DIZ TIME?,Well the answer is I dont know.I got myself waking up thinking where will I go in life.Then I realise that I had wasted time alot.I have wasted it just like dat and just like dat,I wasted a year in my god forsakened secondary life.
Relationships are like stupid.Believe me guys it only works for da good looking ones only.Being a loner sucked big time.It's been a long time since I held a girl in my arms,carress her hair,smell her from da neck up,feel her soft tender lips.I missed those moments.
Well,I'm signin off aight!!!!!Take care yall!!BYE!!!!!

2003-12-08T10:48:00.000+08:00

The time is 10.24 a.m

I didnt go to work today as I am so tired.I slept at 4 a.m yesterday and woke up at 9 a.m juz now.Yes,dat's rite.WAT DA FUCK DID I DO?all of ya might have diz qn in ur mind.Well,I'll tell you wat i do.Yesterday I went out wit da three sisters again.This time there were a lot of talkings between us and I mean conversations unlike last time.We talked and talked like we known each other for a long time,hehe.And guess what????Yesterday's da first ever time Lina smiled towards me.O,my gawd her smile is magnificent.hehe,enuff admiring her aight!!!!!!!Well today I'm gonna make a poll on who'se smiles are da best aight!!!!!!Here we go...........i mean those who I've known lah,hehhe............

05.Mya~Very cute,very kiddy like,I actually like her character.She's fun-lovin and her smile is a killer
04.Ain~Da first born out of da 3 sisters,smile can make ur day,cute wit a blend of beauty,hehe
03.Shuhada~Now diz girl's smile can make me melt,i like lookin at her face I dont know why?............
02.Lina~She is da only person who can melt me,Her smile is everytin,u can see da sunset lookin at her smile
01.Filza~All time fav I presume.She is still no.1.Like Fir and I say,those who have her is so LUCKY!!~Haiz~

These are my fav,hehe,more polls cumin up ya'll know,well HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIN,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LILIN,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
There it is,I sang it,hehehe

Signin off,In(WAN)Djin,10.48 a.m

2003-12-06T00:20:00.000+08:00

The time is 12.00 a.m

Talkin to Maziah on da phone now,quite happy though.She got back from Australia last wednesday and made da effort to call today.Now,Friday and Wednesday is a long time.hehe,She actually made an effort to call.Hahaha!!!!!Tommorrow I'm goin out wit ma frenz.I'm goin out wit Fauzul,Hail,Firdaus,Izzad maybe,Feiruz,Ain,Lina,Ida.Now their house is in woodlands.WOW!!!!!!!!!!That is so far.I cant wait for tommorrow.Hehe,Tommorrow money in-no money out.HAHA!!!I'm da happiest man on earth,WEEEEEEEEEEEHA!Aight signin off!!c ya

2003-12-04T10:13:00.000+08:00

I love this line
gave ya da cross
sat you on da couch
gave you da gun
BLOW ME AWAY!!!!!!!

i watched da change in you
its like i never had you
how you feel so alive
I WATCHED DA CHANGE!!!!!!!!

Taken from:Deftones-Change...in da house of flies

2003-12-04T10:04:00.000+08:00

The time is 9.46 a.m

Today I'm a bit emotional.It all started out wit a dream.I have a feelin dat it's gonna spoil my whole day today.As usual,dreams are like real and they made you recall back da things u do or see in it.But in this one,after da whole dream and after da awakening,i suddenly felt sad and lonely in this world I dont know why.
[I was walkin in a straight alley when a woman appeared infront of me.I cant see her face but I know that she is beautiful.I can sense it.I dont know how but I can sense it.She came forward to me and touched my face.Still it is so dark and I started to get worried.Then I felt her soft lips on my chicks.I kissed her back.It was da moment of a lifetime.As I looked properly,it was my ex,RisMalisa,whom I love so much at that time.She held my hand and said "We'll meet again soon,not today,not tommorrow but soon.Then a soft wind blew by and she smiled.It was so beautiful,the smile,the flyin leaves blewed by the wind.When she suddenly dissapeared,I suddenly turned weak and suddenly fell down from a buildin.When I woke up,I saw her at da corner of my room,this is serious by the way,I stared at her.She said "Izwan,we'll meet again,i promise".I rubbed my eyes and looked at my watch.It was 3.49 a.m.I looked up at da corner and she wasn't there.I woke up wit a mixed feelings of things,sad,angry and even scared.
But today I will juz act normal before I go out wit ma friends.Well,it's early mornin and I have to buy breakfast for my dearest mummy,See you later.
The morale of the story:Do not lose sumone you love very much,it will come back to haunt you

2003-12-03T18:12:00.000+08:00

The time is 6.07 p.m

As usual my blog is da most pathetic one haha!It's been a long time.One more thing aight!!!!!In my blog nothing is serious and i dont mean what i say,why do all yall think dat i really mean those things i said,HELLO!IT'S 2003 DAMMIT!!!!!!!Y must all yall take things seriously,yall know i like to make fun and jokes.Fuck diz man!!!!!!!Y muz it all be me the villain and yall da heroes?????SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!(waceh waceh,wan garang seh)

Hehe,o yah,ZAD!!!!!Bila nak datang rumah?Datanglah beraya di sini.Jangan tak datang pulak!!!Lin,datang rumah jangan malu malu,datang aje,bawak kawan kawan lain aight!!!!!!!Irisriot,i heard it was a success and i would like to congratulate yall aight,you guyz are my favourite muthafuckaz!!!!!!!!!

2003-11-30T01:28:00.000+08:00

The rime is 1.24a.m

A lot of friend's houses had been completed,money is one of da main oblectives but the other main ones was to look at da CHICKS!!!!!!Most of them,i mean,BEAUTIFUL ONES

2003-11-27T00:31:00.000+08:00

The time is 12.22 a.m

Da second day had been nice so far.Da first time i got to see my cuzzin's little baby,Ibrahim from london.What a cute baby.He likes me.I think its bcoz i look like a big teddy bear and huggable,haha.He smells like milk,and he is so cute.HEHEHEHEHHEHEHE,I LOVE BABIES.AND NOT FORGETTIN DA BABIES AT THE MALL AND OTHER PLACIES OR SHALL I SAY HOT MAMAS,hehhehehehehehe.Lina,I love you and cant wait to see you,and i dyed my hair juz now,hehehe.OK,raya outin iz juz about to start,MAKCIK MAKCIK SEMUE,STANDBYE

2003-11-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

The time is 11.04 p.m

Da first day is always da emotional one.I hope everybody agrees on that.I ask my parents for forgiveness and couldnt help the teaers rollin down my cheeks.Now that is over,I would like to say dat the trip to the cemetery was a sad one.I still remember my grandma.I love her very much.I miss her so much..Aight..........I'll update soon,my niece juz come,SHITHEADS!!!!!!!

2003-11-25T02:08:00.000+08:00

The time is 1.55 a.m

Haha,Da RAYA pon,happy nye rasa hehe!O yesh by da wayz,SLAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN,kalau ada tersalah cakap ke,tersalah sangka ke,tersalah pikir ke,tersalah tengok ke,tersalah pakai ke,terkencing ke,terberak ke,tertelan ke,termasok ke,terbuat ke,termaki ke,ter sumbat ke,terantok ke,ter-pen-tine ke,eheh!!!!!!!!apa lah aku ni,hihihihihihihi,harap maaf kan lah!!!!Aku ni orang nye kan main lepas cakap je,sorry eh kengkawan!!!!!!!!!
to PRABA only:Lets put it far from us Prab,wat's done is done,u know me,i talk what i have in mind sorry man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yang lagi satu ni aku nak cakapkan ni,Raya nanti jangan lupa datang rumah ye!!!!!!datang jangan tak datang.Pintu sentiasa terbuka kepada dua orang saje sehari takleh lebih,BOTAK MAK AKU NANTI!!!!!!!undastanding sikit lah!!!!!economy merosot tau!!!!!!
Yang kepada broken heart tu jangan bimbang,saya pun heartbroken jugak,sob*sob*
IRISRIOT,I think i'll be there for u on ur gig to support yall' and yes i still care hehe!!!I'll rody you guys aight!!!!If u guys want a vocalist,ehem!!!!I'm your man aight!!!hehehe,juz jokin but SERIOUSLY!!!!!!
ok guyz,signin off,take care yall'

2003-11-24T10:32:00.000+08:00

The time is 10.23a.m

It is da time of the year again.The forgivin time has come again.I wanna wish all my friends muslim and non-muslims a SELAMAT HARI RAYE MAAF ZAHIR BATIN!!KALAU ADA SILAP KE,TERSALAH BAHASA KE,HARAP MAAFKAN YE!!!!!!!!!If there's something I've done over the years that really hurts your feelings than i would say I'm sorry.I'm only human,even Albert Einstein makes mistake...........
I'm really sorry for what i had done in this year.This 2003 is a bad year for me.A lot of sins and chaos.I would like to beg forgiveness from god,please show me and put me to the right path in my life......................................
Lina,SLAMAT HARI RAYA!!!!!Not long,I will ask u da qn.Dont say no baby girl!!!!!U da one that i love and diz beautiful day as my witness,I want u by my side all the time.We will be together.I can feel it,I love you................

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI,MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN-Izwan Jalil~@~In_Djin

2003-11-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

2003-11-23T23:17:00.000+08:00

My Love Life

I once had a lover
But now I'm a loner
tracin back da first date
thinkin of wat she said
the date was done for,a mess i create
told her i'm sorry
her face turned red

everywhere i go
she was by my side
jealousy eruptin
conversation turns to fight
i began to lose her
my friend took over
whole i writin up diz rhyme
believe me diz happens everytime

it goes on and on and on and on
but i regret when things go wrong
this is my love life
Diz iz my song

I tried lookin
for a new one
chances fade to black
i turn to the sun
in my mind i hoped
but hope turns me down
i falll to the ground
force pushes me down
i know i will never get
what i had lost
but i would kill to have you back
your the one that i love

2003-11-23T17:44:00.000+08:00

And...all.....turns.....black
I see u in da distance
like a pheonix rises
up from da grave
and vilolates da silence
i had nowhere to go.....
every chance ignored......
How long have i been dreamin......

I felt dat i was betrayed
by the choices i made
the words dat u used
r sumkind of abuse
as time leaps me by........
leapin to the sky........
i felt my soul about to fly

Its no use,I'm failin
as if dat i'm mistaken
Its no use,I'm failin
as if dat i'm forgotten

DiszRejectz,DR,Izwan,In_djin,CUMIN soon!!

2003-11-23T17:07:00.000+08:00

This is me,my life
The time is 4.54p.m

Hari Raya is cumin and I've been hearin a lot of yeye crap since da first day of diz fastin month.Here,today I would like to recap on all the best of the best yeyes and crap talk u can ever find in gvss in 2003
.Firstly who can forget Asri's "korek" incident,haha.Believe me Asri I know.Aint it rite zad?
.HAHA,Cameron Highlands is one of the hottest piece of news yet but it all ended up true.Diz goes out to all my friends-I would never lie to yous,i love all ma friends
.Hmmmmm....Me bein kicked out by Prab from IrisRiot.Thanks man.....................................
.Asri and Lin together-Yes yes i still remember the happy look on asri's face but it all came to a sad one for how many?DAYS?WEEKS?HOURS?MINUTES?SECONDS?HAHAHA
.Our friend finally falls in love and YES i'm talkin bout you zad!!!HAHA!!!How many heartbreaks has it been?ooooooooh!it must be hard aight
.Yup!Who can forget the famous words from Praba sayin dat I'm jealous of him gettin Fhasha,dat my friends is no 1 on my talk crap list,sorry man!!
.Spp programme was a killer when my friends meet each other.We were untouchable.We roamed gvss durin spp.Haha those were the days*sob*-*sob*
.Zad fitin and cursin ghalid.That was an epic battle between David and Goliath.More like rabbit and PIG!!!!HAHA
.Bai talkin crap dat he wants to play pool on the mornin of HariRaya,now that is one classy craptalk!!
Haha that's all folks!!Got sumtin to tell,spill it out on my box aight!!!!!BYE!!!!!

2003-11-22T23:41:00.000+08:00

The time is 11.30p.m

I brought my guitar down to chill today and got new tunes.Actually I composed a new song.Its a funny song called FESTIVE SEASON as the festive seasons is cumin haha!Well anyway,today i painted my house and it was damn tiring.Not to mention ME FASTIN ESSAY!!!Bad day for me i guess,haha,anywayz,Tomorrow I'm gonna go to town and try to ask for a job.I need cash.Shit I suck at paintin.HAHA!!!Today I missed Lina so much.It hurts sumtimes thinkin of her,my goddess,my butterfly,my queen.Damn that Jazli,I suck!I'm a loser.Nobody wants me.I missed all ma friends.Old and new.I wish we all can get together i guess one day.As in for Lina,i will not give up and will never surrender,it's not my nature,yall know me well aight!!!!!!I will find it until i get it,and i do mean what i say.Well,signin off for now.Lina,I'm comin,dont shut da door baby,haha!!!!!!!!!!!I'm turnin crazy,SHIT!!!!!

2003-11-22T02:52:00.000+08:00

It's 2.50a.m

As usual I cant sleep.Thinkin of the goddess who stole my heart since the first time i layed my eyes on her.Yes it's her NurAzlina a.k.a Lina HAHAHAHA(gile lah WAN!!!!SENTIMENTAL nah).Haha,Fuck I have to paint my house,shit!!!!Life sucked.Anywayz today i said it to Maziah dat she is a loser and juz wastin her time on me.Me strugglin wit life and she added it up.Overseas call went over my head this month and she still has the cheeks to tell me that I changed?????Suck my dick and call me UNCLE SAM coz I dont give a FUCK!!!But I do really regret sayin all dat.God please forgive me!!!!One more thing god!!!!!!!I love Lina so much,let her be happy.If she's happier not bein wit me then I give up,but if she's happier wit me,give me a sign,Thanks for food today,and thank you for creatin me in this world,i owe you one god!!!!!I love her and YOU,hehehe

2003-11-22T01:56:00.000+08:00

Today I went out to do some shoppin in geylang for the Hari Raya shit comin.I was hopin Lina was there wit me but instead she had to go out wit her mom.If only i could tell her that i love her so much,i would feel better,but what will she say?It's said,she prefers jazli ore then me.I'm juz a loser.Relationship sucks,but,if i dont see them goin out together,there's still hope.One day I'll tell her myself.One day maybe,one day........

2003-11-21T07:47:00.000+08:00

LinkinPark
Blink182

2003-11-19T17:12:00.000+08:00

2003-11-19T17:11:00.000+08:00

2003-11-19T17:05:00.000+08:00

in_djin,
What's goin on today in my life?Well,nothin much coz right now me and my family and friends are stable except for some of them.Well i guess that everyone is a bit shaken by me enterin me self to blogspot aight HAHA!!!!!!!My comment for this week is........

to FHASHA,
who da hell cares bout yo quotes????sum of them are true and i cant disagree but i wanted to comment on 1 thing
sex-Just do it doggystyle?-what in da name of blue heaven????????
Are you okay?OOOO i get it,finally p-boy get's his engine serviced hehehe!!!!!So how was
p-boy's big ben?????hehe and 1 more thing

to PRABA,
Hey man we used to get together and juz talk and talk till we talk crap,and mostly CRAP!!!!!but i still talk crap but u talk DA FATHER OF CRAP!!!!!!!!!!I got nothin against you but this
yo relationship-dont think dat i didnt know bout you sayin dat i'm jealous of ya!!!!!To tell ya
da truth i', jealous bout leman enterin da goddamn band but me bein jealous
of Fasha????????dat doesnt sound rite does it?hmmmmmmmmmm ,
u dreamin essay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well that's my weekly update and guess what!!those who dont like me well,BRING IT ON SUCKAS!!!!!!hehe,BYE

2003-11-19T16:49:00.000+08:00

hi yall!!!!!!!thiz is da first time and i'm quite happy to have my own blog and delighted to say whatever i have to say.Firstly I have to say blogspot is not safe anymore now that i am here especially ma friends,u know what i mean zad ;),anywayz,in my blogspot there will be no bullshit and no ass crap talkin from you wiseasses!!!!!!U dont like wat i have to say!!screw yo own ass then its not ma problem,anywayz i can feel that blogspot's goin blind now that i am here,watch what yall say aight!!!!!!!!!!!!Once i comment it,it aint gonna be pretty